Sunday, December 19, 2010


She was a young successful silver jewelry designer, married with two kids. She was the friend of a friend.
I didn't know her personally, but I got in touch with her a while ago via facebook, offering my services as a photographer to catalog her jewelry pieces.

A month ago, she was diagnosed with leukemia, three weeks later, she passed away.

It was a case of being here one moment, and gone the next. The news hit me hard, like a rock on my head, and for a second there, I felt like I was being introduced to the concept of death for the first time. I came to a sudden realization that, I too, could die any second! without warning, without feeling that "my time is drawing near".. without nothing.

I looked at my body, and felt my soul watching it, felt that my soul was a separate being, something living inside a machine or a device, and it could exit this device any minute, leaving it cold and useless.
I had a hard time sleeping that night. For some reason, I could hear the silence around me. My heartbeat sounded louder than usual, but not faster. My eyes were seeing things I usually don't notice in the dark. My feet were very cold, and I had a stomachache. I felt very much alive.
But was I ready?

People forget, they eventually get caught up in what we call "life" and forget. Until something like this comes their way, and reminds them that nothing.. is forever.

I hope this young woman's soul is somewhere beautiful, in a place where she feels at peace.


UmmUmarNY said...

Inna Lillaahi wa Inna Ilaihi Raaji'oon!!! Yah Allah... Death is, indeed, the only certain thing in our lives yet we concentrate in futile pursuits.. until the time comes and we are all in awe and surprised... Like you say: "Are we ready?".. That's my greatest fear!! ..for in fact, we never are!! Thanks so much for the reminder.

UmmUmarNY said...

BTW... your photos are excellent!! :D

Mariam said...

Jazzaky Allah khier for your comment sis!